Yeah, I'm sure everyone has seen blog posts from people who have been hit hard by COVID-19. Some saw it coming, others did not. We (my husband and I) were blindsided in a big way. Where we worked our 7:00 - 4:00 days, we knew layoffs were coming. We knew things were changing, we NEVER expected to be laid off. Well, to be fair, I predicted that it could happen but never really expected it.
The email came in for a Zoom meeting Wednesday morning with our financial person. I knew then, that a lay off was coming. Then my husband got the same notice, so did my boss, so did her boss, so did a fellow co-worker. We all braced for it. And our jobs were eliminated, effective immediately. Just gone.
Needless to say, I'm still in shock, sometimes, I'm numb. But for the whole part, I should be excited! I should be happy. Right now, I'm looking to the future and asking, 'now what'?
I am following the grieving process. Denial, Anger, Bargaining, Depression and Acceptance. Mostly anger and depression. Today I am angry and depressed. Yesterday I was doing well and accepting it, then I wondered what my husband would do when he went to work...oh yeah, not going to happen. It is this sine wave that has many overlapping lines.
To be fair, we have applied for unemployment. We get two weeks 'severance' pay. Then we get a weeks worth of pay for the number of years we've been there. That takes us well into September. But damn.
So for today, I am angry...tomorrow might be better...the next day, we'll see. For now, I would love to take a trip to get out of the house, get out of this town and see what happens when I'm not eating, living and breathing a breakup with my job.